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Saturday 30 June 2007
I am just home after work and satay @ Lau Pa Sat. Left office and Dalphane, Elaine & myself went to satisfy our satay craving.. so happy LPS is opp only! so many yummy food. paycheck is in and although i only worked for 10 days lol. 1.3k w/o shift allowance yet, not bad at all. using it sparingly should be able to last me until 24th July for my next paycheck which I foresee is will at least 4k cos of the accumulated shift allowance from this mth. work is so tiring!! all i ever do each day is sleep, go work, sleep, go work completely no social life. my colleagues and I are so deeply bonded ok. I speak to them much more than even my own family (i dun even get to see mummy or lulu on weekdays ): ) and yes, have i told you, i have been so lazy lately i even cab to work lol. my cab fare home tonight was 29.40 5 bucks more ex than usual ): traffic jam & road block @ the entrence of CTE at freaking 2.30am!!! and yes i rewarded myself with a pair of heels which i kind of regret buying cos it is wayyy too high to walk around in, its probably 4 inches, not smth comfortable for a whole day at work. how? but its super pretty! and it looks 5 times more than it cost, not that it is cheap though! T H E S U N S E T 4:48 am
Work is tiring, working @ CS is extremely. I was on APAC shift the whole of this week, sucks having to wake up freaking early and squeezing MRT with the rest of the working adults. thank God my boss is so sweet, I am back on London starting mondays. No more early mornings and Squeezing, and my gfs are also on London as well, happy!! the people @ CS are so friendly and sweet, the culture is so different, maybe cos where I work comprises of mainly foreigners esp the swiss, british & those from down under. its really worlds apart from the world's local bank where i temp-ed. everyone seems so happy to be here, they make work seem like so much fun, there are no barriers between us,the line manager or even the boss who happens to sit next to me. it makes working so much easier, and happier oh ya, where i am sitting faces the temp stadium for National day, I have the perfect unblocked view from the 24th floor. and i am working on national day, some people are paying big money for high level hotel rooms to see the firework, but they dun even get as close as my office. HAHAHA!
Back to where i was, APAC shift is supposed to end at 6 but no one ever leaves at 6, or for that matter, 7 or 8. one of my gfs who is already doing London leaves office at 3.30am everyday But I am not complainning, its not easy to get in here, in an enviornment where ur colleagues mostly are degree, honours & MBA holders, I feel so small, but so lucky to be given a chance to be a part of them. plus, I have good friends @ work, who makes the trainning and elearns we have to complete, so much easier we motive each other every single morning, & its "we're always here for you! " so blessed. T H E S U N S E T 12:49 pm
depressed now, cos i have to work tomorrow. bye slacking life, hello work life!! I'll feel better after this hahaha!  before meeting my girls the other day  make up half done, but cant help photo whoring   utterly unchio, but the only reason why i like this is cos i have great skin ok, off to work tomorrow. wish me luck T H E S U N S E T 10:10 pm oh, so they are not together anymore. aww... I'm so sad for you. the reason i am such a bitch is, cos you were the best i had. after dating some other guys, i realised that you were still the best, & how stupid i was to let you go. and since you are my best choice, naturally i wanted to be ur best too... but i wasnt, she was.... T H E S U N S E T 11:17 am
i see that the both of you are together again, maybe i should stop being a bitch & give you my blessing, anyways, i wan to see how long you'll last tis time around. i wan to see how determined you are. I always believe a leopard never changes a spot. i wan to be proven true again. T H E S U N S E T 6:06 pm
dinner dates with my girls are always fun. we had dinner at thai express and the bill came up to almost 70 bucks. the service was horrible though, waiting time could kill. we had, . thai pineapple rice with seafood, . green curry with chicken and rice . honey chicken with rice . kangkong with chilli . tom yam soup with fish . red ruby with ice cream . thai chandol . glutinous rice with mango + coconut milk full and satisfied cos earlier on, me and felicia tay had tim sum @ marina sq prior to meeting the other 2.. anyways, we had a lot of fun, and laughter as usual. our storyteller of the month had a lot of stories to share about her and the very elite *ahem* haha and the other one had a lot of views on her potiential boyfriend, all hail Rain Zhang~! Somehow the stuff we talk about nowadays wholely revolve around bfs, marriage, kids and career... we have even decided the names of our sons. respectively, Edmund, Edward, Edwin & Edison Goh Felicia said this is wat 20 year old brings about, i agree, we no longer gossip like sampat aunties & we start thinking of the future so amazing~!! If you think back on how we have evolved,or rahter how our friendship has evolved, you would realise how fast time flies, seems like just yesterday when we were still in secondary school, meeting every recess time. & now, 3 of us are going out into the working world and our baby scholar is going to uni already!! so fast! (another 15 years can buy hdb flat already, but i prefer condo.. lets start saving~!!) & I happened to meet Dalp at FEP, the poor girl worked for only 5 days and looked so worn out with eyebags. with one whole ton of stuff to study. the worst thing is she is now transfered to APAC shift. aiyo... T H E S U N S E T 7:47 am I've been too lazy.. I have a ton of form to fill in by Monday, but i am sooo lazy.. I am going for my pre employment checkup today, been delaying it for too long. On a happier note, My girls are having dinner together, Happy Happy Happy! I went shopping the other day, and so far I got myself, 3 office tops, 2 formal pants, 2 cotton tees, 10 underwear hahahaa, i am getting darn good at this man, worth it. even mummy says so. off to watch tv, retro show now on channel 8 lol. T H E S U N S E T 10:41 am
I need to be in office at 10 freaking am tomorrow. Damn, its been so long since i stepped out of home so early on a weekday. but anyways, after that i am off for a shopping spree with Lav. Fion zehzeh is gonna show you the meaning of spree tomorrow. I am targetting 15 new office wear tomorrow =) hehe, feeling rich cos ahem *mummy* Goodnight everybutties. lalalalalalalalalala... T H E S U N S E T 12:35 am hmm.. my first day of work has been postponed a week, so as to give me more time to complete those pre employment necessities. I have like a ton of stuff to fill in, and a ton of test to go thru b4 work actually commences on the 18th. Dalp is off at work starting today! so excited for her~~ my girls are thinking of meeting this fri. great, cos i miss their meeting last fri, due to the appt with my HR director.. they miss me I bet. kekeke!! man, did i tell u, last night, i dreamt that my husband died leaving me to care for my 3 children. Goodness Me!! Ben says its cos i think too much in the day about getting married, and b4 i slept last night, i was watching some gruelsome murder show. oh well.... time for me to bathe coffee. T H E S U N S E T 3:50 pm
my family is crazy. last night we had steamboat for dinner. the weather is freaking hot, and the 7 of us were sweating like hell as we were eating. but it was fun. aunty susan made very nice fishcakes.. & the family is heading for Hong Kong this year end, because I was so looking forward to going, so, my uncle said, we are all going to HK in December. Hip Hip Horray~!! D i s n e y l a n d~~~ & I am organising & booking, gonna be so exciting, at least no budget airlines... we fly Cathay Pacific at the very least. Yes Yes Yes, Hong Kong trip still able to be materialized after so long!! love T H E S U N S E T 2:57 am
caught between the past and the future, who would you choose, the one who promises a very beautiful tomorrow, or the one who once gave you a very magical yesterday... there was one period in my life when, all I ever wanted was you & I, under the starlit sky... note: it's WAS T H E S U N S E T 1:07 am
NOTE: A little long, but worth taking time off to read this. Skip, if you are in a hurry ... HOW COULD YOU? By Jim Willis, 2001 When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day. Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love. She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway. There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf. Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family. I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?" They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?" Perhaps because she understood my dog speak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty. A Note from the Author: If "How Could You?" brought tears to your eyes as you read it, as it did to mine as I wrote it, it is because it is the composite story of the millions of formerly "owned" pets who die each year in American & Canadian animal shelters. Anyone is welcome to distribute the essay for a non-commercial purpose, as long as it is properly attributed with the copyright notice. Please use it to help educate, on your websites, in newsletters, on animal shelter and vet office bulletin boards. Tell the public that the decision to add a pet to the family is an important one for life, that animals deserve our love and sensible care, that finding another appropriate home for your animal is your responsibility and any local humane society or animal welfare league can offer you good advice, and that all life is precious. Please do your part to stop the killing, and encourage all spay & neuter campaigns in order to prevent unwanted animals. Jim Willis T H E S U N S E T 2:04 am
After Dalp called me to tell me abt the offer letter, I cant seem to sleep. the pressure from the job can be felt even before i start work. Immensly stressful, like saturated until the max. I dunno if i can make it thru the 3 months probation, or if the external vendors hired by CS can find faults in my resume. I dunno if i can perform well, or if I can survive the high expectations, goals & demands of my job nature. but I know very clearly, for even if i cannot, I must. behind all that glamour of securing a well paying job, one that pays even more than a first class honours degree holder would get, there is this side of me no one knows... a side of me i wish no one sees... the stress is building up, right from the day i stepped into CS for the aptitude test. I am usually very self confident, very full of myself. But for now, I would like to let this sense of unsureness envelope me. let me mourn for the life I am about to embark on. In the pursuit to material wealth, success & self affirmation, what I gainned? Is it really more worthy that what I am about to lose?? only time can tell... I only hope it will not be too late, when i finally realise... T H E S U N S E T 2:50 am
the day HE left, that part of me that was living for HIM, died. the day YOU appeared, that part of me that died, hoped to be revived.. somehow... T H E S U N S E T 11:58 pm
My slacking days are coming to an end. 4 more days until I start work. the only thing i am looking forward to is that fat paycheck. Life ... No job, complain jobless, Got job, complain tired, Got good job, complain lazyness. Life ... T H E S U N S E T 3:00 pm
& the weekend is over just like that, so fast ain't it, time seems to fly everyday. anyways, I just ordered some stuff for that Little Mafia girl, (she bit the uncle who lived 2 floors below me, who owns 2 shihtzu who happens to be Mafia's bestfriends, his hands bled & I was damn paiseh for my girl's bad behaviour) Ordered: FrontLine Spot On ( anti-flea & tick program), Aloveen Intensive Shampoo & Aloveen Intensive Conditioner Total Damage, SGD 64. tell me about it. freaking expensive can. but no choice, cant scrimp & save on such stuff. Having it delivered on Tuesday. Cant wait for the shampoo though, hopes it smells good. $19.50 for a 500ml bottle. what the hell, even my asience shampoo which contains PEARL only cos $11 or so. Coffee better be grateful and cooperate during her bath. Ben says I am damn niao, how not to be you tell me. I dun print Singapore dollars for a living okies. he says I can be so funny sometimes, I say bleh.... T H E S U N S E T 11:19 pm
last night, Choong, Niki & myself were MSN mass convo-ing. And as usual we were talking about our very beloved furfriends, DOGS. Niki was talking abt people who buy dogs, and then give them up. because they realise its not suitable for them. And I am very very very upset to hear such stuff. I am super against people, who do not do adequate research b4 getting a dog. If the reason you are getting THAT puppy just because it looks cute, wake up, because THAT puppy will grow up in less than a year, and THAT puppy will no longer be cute. will you still love THAT puppy? the same goes for adoption. Reading up and knowing exectly how ur dog will behave is essential. different breeds have different characteritics. And not all small dogs, behave the same way. The classic example would be a Maltese & Jack Russel. while the former is laidback, and requires a lot of grooming time per day, the latter demands more attention for play time, and very much lesser grooming. plus, it not just about finding the right dog to suit ur lifestyle, you need to think about other practical factors like, 1. Family Your parents/spouse and siblings may like dogs. They probably dun mind petting any furfriends they meet on the road. But liking and living with one is completely different. Will they be able to take it, if ur new furfriend pees on their bed, will they be able to take it, if ur new furfriend decides to chew on that expensive sofa. These will happen because it takes time to train a dog, and even so, I am sad to say even until today my girl loves peeing on the rugs she sees at home. ( but she only does that when my mom chats on the phone & Mafia feels she is being neglected) 2. Finances If you think buying a $900 pure bred puppy is expensive. You probably wanna think twice before getting one. because dogs are not cheap to maintain. Good kibbles can cost you about $150 for a 15kg pack (Mafia is eating TimberWolf Organic - Ocean Blue, which is one of the most expensive but best kibbles & a pack can last me 6 months, because she take only very little kibbles as the spoilt one is on Home cooked food) Mafia's Home Cooked Food varies depending on my mom's mood. But as a rough guide, my mom goes to the wet market for, fresh minced beef & pork, pork fillets, carrots, potatoes, corns, pork liver, brown rice, papaya & apples every Sunday morning for her precious baby. The other expensive thing is Vet visits. My girl's prev owner brought her to the best- Mount Pleasant Animal Hospital hence, I am continuing that. It cost me a whole damn lot, and i have spent close to $400 on her medical bills so far, but no complaints 3. Time Can you afford time to spend with ur little furfriend. They need daily walks no matter the size of ur house. Mafia goes for her walks 4 times a day. 5am ( mom takes her) , 10am, 3pm, 8pm. I also spend at least an hour each day combing her fur to make sure no matts. plus u need to spend time to play with them daily. Mafia and I play with her squeaky toys every afternoon. My mom & brother play with her the moment they are home at 7 until she goes to bed at 10. So much responsibilty, and compromise in my life because of her, but if you asked me, would I still choose to adopt her if I could choose all over again, My answer is yes. Definately! Becaue it is all worth it, when u see her wagging her tail, while looking at you. wagging her tail because she is happy u are home, kissing u in the morning because she is happy u are awake. because of her, I am now able to take time off to smell the roses during our daily walks in the park, because of her, i made friends with a lot of fellow doggie owners who live nearby because of her, i understand wat responsibility is. because of her, I am forever Changed~  I hope that this helped you, to realise if your lifestyle, is indeed suitable to own one. & Congrats to your final decision. NOTE: I never support home-breeder nor puppymills. If you really have to buy a puppy, pls only get one from a SKC certified breeder. T H E S U N S E T 3:21 pm
Happy 1st of JUNE everyone. How fast time flies, we are halfway thru 2007 already~ My babes' 20th approaching soon. beloved, how do the both of u wanna celebrate~? oh ya~~ Despo club chairman is going for her interview today~ GOODLUCKK sweetie! & haf a SAFE + FUN trip Von, You deserve a break!!  missing my babes T H E S U N S E T 1:10 am |
