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Thursday, 7 June 2007
After Dalp called me to tell me abt the offer letter, I cant seem to sleep. the pressure from the job can be felt even before i start work. Immensly stressful, like saturated until the max. I dunno if i can make it thru the 3 months probation, or if the external vendors hired by CS can find faults in my resume. I dunno if i can perform well, or if I can survive the high expectations, goals & demands of my job nature. but I know very clearly, for even if i cannot, I must. behind all that glamour of securing a well paying job, one that pays even more than a first class honours degree holder would get, there is this side of me no one knows... a side of me i wish no one sees... the stress is building up, right from the day i stepped into CS for the aptitude test. I am usually very self confident, very full of myself. But for now, I would like to let this sense of unsureness envelope me. let me mourn for the life I am about to embark on. In the pursuit to material wealth, success & self affirmation, what I gainned? Is it really more worthy that what I am about to lose?? only time can tell... I only hope it will not be too late, when i finally realise... T H E S U N S E T 2:50 am |
